What I am

As I am continuing to work on areas of self acceptance, I sometimes feel like I am walking in a landmine....just as I start to think I have gotten those demeaning voices out of my head, I realize they are lurking just around the bend in a different form but still super powered and stealthy...I go about my day, feeling like I have nothing to show for it but that frame of mind doesn't serve me and I would like to let it go.... so for today I am just going to try to be. I am going to let myself know that while I may be a hugely complicated, variety of things (read: energies, ideas, emotions, etc.), I don't need to place my value on all things exterior...deep inside is what counts and where all that great stuff is...

I am not a sink full of dirty dishes and a sticky kitchen floor

I am  not piles of laundry that have yet to be done and put away

I am not the closets waiting to be organized

I am not messy desk or the paperwork to file

I am not all those recipes that haven't been explored yet

I am not the phone calls I do or don't make

I am not my current stained, wrinkled "Goodwill worthy" wardrobe 

I am not the times I don't floss or exercise or say the right thing

I am not bills not attended to or budget out of whack

I am not losing or gaining weight

I am not a "productive" day

I am a deep, kind, thinking, feeling, loving, living,soul-searching being

there is where the value is and has always been...see it...believe it...embrace it....